Why not me?

Have you ever seen someone who gets everything that they want, a career, a family, a new opportunity and ask 'Why not me?' I walked away from friends almost a year ago, because I am no longer involved in that lifestyle. Now I find out that one of my ex-friends is getting married in December and is opening up her own bar in March. If I had not turned away from that life I could have been involved in it.
It seems like everything that she has asked for she is getting, me I am struggling everyday just to survive. She has also written a screenplay that if we would have stayed friends I was helping to write the second and third part. The third part would have been written by me. I mean don't get me wrong, I am not regretting my decision to walk away, there was just too much of everything in that friendship. Too much drama, too much uncertainty, too much lies, too much anger, with our friendship it all just too much.
I know things happen in God's time and not in my time... but I can't help but ask why not me... when will it be my turn? I am only human after all.