Why not me?

Have you ever seen someone who gets everything that they want, a career, a family, a new opportunity and ask 'Why not me?' I walked away from friends almost a year ago, because I am no longer involved in that lifestyle. Now I find out that one of my ex-friends is getting married in December and is opening up her own bar in March. If I had not turned away from that life I could have been involved in it.
It seems like everything that she has asked for she is getting, me I am struggling everyday just to survive. She has also written a screenplay that if we would have stayed friends I was helping to write the second and third part. The third part would have been written by me. I mean don't get me wrong, I am not regretting my decision to walk away, there was just too much of everything in that friendship. Too much drama, too much uncertainty, too much lies, too much anger, with our friendship it all just too much.
I know things happen in God's time and not in my time... but I can't help but ask why not me... when will it be my turn? I am only human after all.

One of those days

Have you ever had one of those days? Where you feel that the world is conspiring against you. Well today was mine. I honest think I was about to lose my mind. Friday I lost my cell phone, so I had to call and have it replaced. Thank God for insurance. Well Monday I received my new phone used phone and the face was cracked it looked like it had water damage, so I called them back up and they sent me a new one. I received it today.
Well I lost the one that I am replacing. I searched hi and low and for the life of me I couldn't find it. I tore apart my whole room looking for it. I finally found it in my kitchen on the window sill. I was about to have a nervous breakdown over a silly phone. I was like why God? Why me? I am so turned around I don't know if I am coming or going. Oh and I almost ran over someone on my way home from the market. like I said I am having one of those days where nothing has gone right.
But I know what I need to do to make it better. PRAY!